It's also August 3rd, which is my re-birthday. I'm one of the blessed ones who knows the exact date Jesus drew me into relationship with Him. If I knew where the notebook was from that summer, I'd pull it out and write from those first halcyon days of my romance with Jesus. But somehow in the many moves of life (both mine and my mother's) many of my earliest journals have disappeared (along with my wedding dress, so losing those journals is something I've long since gotten over).
Instead, I pulled out a journal from my first year of being a mom. And in it I found a list of goals for my life. It's a pretty comprehensive list, though, oddly, I've never been very interested in goal-setting. I think my right-brained, left-handed creative mind finds them as restrictive as shopping lists (which I don't make either, but don't get me started on that--I do keep them, just in my head).
So this list is an anomaly and all the more interesting (and significant?) because of its rarity.
Here it is, as written September 9, 1985:
A. Excitement in my Christian Walk:
- For the Word: constant hunger for it
- The Spirit's infilling--seeing results in worship
- words of knowledge--hearing His voice and being faithful to speak what I hear
- doing His word--not simply being a hearer, but acting on what I hear
- Preaching the word--evangelism where I live
- encouraging other believers
- anticipating and meeting his needs
- allowing him time to himself
- giving him support in his job and school
- listening to him, encouraging him to share his heart
- sharing my hear with him--being vulnerable at all costs
- creativity in our daily lives--not letting our lives become routine
- being positive about things--being filled with the Spirit
- working hard to make our home, our relationship a sanctuary
- just plain loving him sacrificially. But emotionally, too!
- Praying without ceasing for him!
- recognizing and meeting her physical needs
- gentleness and patience when she's fussy
- singing and speaking about the Lord to her, even now
- praying for her (now and in the future)
- allowing her to be a baby--not being antsy for her to get past this part
- LOVING her as she is, and KNOWING she's who God intended her to be. RIGHT NOW.
D. For myself
- Books--not getting stagnant by not reading--even just a Psalm
- writing--more creativity. Carving out time for writing. Even a paragraph a day.
- sewing--plugging away at projects--to see something FINISHED!!!
- a friend of my own here
Faith without works is useless, James says. He's writing truth. Am I living that truth? Help me, Lord, to live out my faith in these concrete ways.
Apart from the section about baby E, most of these goals could have been written a week ago. And looking at it gives me chills because I really can mark both how far I've come and where I've missed the mark. Does this mean I haven't gotten very far, or that my desires were always what I should be desiring for my relationships?
It's a good thing to ponder this week.
What are your goals for your most important relationships?
Or...how are you living out your faith?
Work at your faith with fear and trembling, says Philippians 2, for it is God at work within you...