Random Journal Day is happening once a month now, so you only get to (or have to) discover with me what I was writing about at some point in one of my myriad blue composition notebooks over the past 40 years. Before you read my old entry hop over to Dawn's blog to check out these.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Just re-read "Weight of Glory (by CS Lewis)." It truly is one of my all-time favorite essays. The idea of longing that Lewis talks about--the 'glory' of pleasing God, of hearing "well done!"--this longing haunts me. Not only to please Him but to get through the veil. But the notion--the truth --that "some of us, that any of us who really chooses, shall actually survive [the] examination, shall find approval, shall please God. What a thought. To please God, to be loved by God, not merely pitied, but delighted in as an artist delights in his work or a father delights in a son--it seems impossible, a weight of glory which out thoughts can hardly sustain. But it is so." p. 10
These words--"To please God..." make tears pool at the corners of my eyes. Make me stop and take a deep breath and dwell in them for a moment. He can be pleased by me. It's not simply a matter of the greater bending down to the lesser, not just His nature loving me whether I deserve it or not, and not even just loving me because I am His. No, it's ALSO possible that my very own human free-willed actions and life can and do please Him. Just as I am. It's hard to fathom that the Holy Other, the One who set the stars into space actually LIKES the tiny life I live on the corner of this globe. But He does.
I know it's true. And I know, as CSL says, that my desire to please Him, to live a life worthy of Him is not only good but right. The reward worth seeking. And that hunger to please, in itself, is the very indication of what lies beyond the veil of this world, just waiting to be satisified.