But here's a bullet-point list of all the things I thought:
- Of course I'm faithful.
- Or maybe I'm not faithful, I'm just in love with Jesus.
- But then there are all the times when I'm really NOT faithful.
- "Even when I'm faithless, You, God, are faithful." (2 Timothy, 2: 13, my paraphrase)
- And why should I be thanked for being what I'm supposed to be, anyway? Luke 17: 9-10 says, "Will He thank the servant because he did what he was told to do? So you also, when you have done everything you were told do do, should say, "We are unworthy servants; we have only done our duty."
We unworthy, unqualified, un-everything servants are privileged to serve the King of Kings. That's glory enough. Can you fathom this? Really, can you? He uses US to serve Him. What a crazy mixed up reality, where the weak and powerless (see the Beatitudes!) are the ones with all the power in the universe.
We pledge fealty to HIM and HIS power is ours. His everything is ours.
So if we're faithful, it's only what we were supposed to be. He's the faithful one.
Still, I do long to be faithful.
More tomorrow than today.