It's December's Random Journal Link-up Day. And according to our faithful organizers, that makes it the LAST RJD of the year. I was shocked when I read this, because...where the heck has the year gone, anyway?
Anyway, I was hoping I'd pull out a journal from some winter or other, and find an entry from Advent. However, the problem with all my journals looking ABSOLUTELY THE SAME is that it's the epitome of random pulling out a blue notebook, and alas, I grabbed one from Summer/Fall 2008. I haven't opened it yet. But wait a minute, maybe there's a possibility of Advent toward the end of this book. Hmmm. Oh well, no such luck but here's my offering:
November 3 (Election Eve)
"He is the ground, the teaching, He is the taught, and He is the reward." Julian of Norwich
What hits me, as I read today's Psalm, 63, is that as I thirst from Him in a dry and weary land where there is no water, is that He is both the answer to my thirst AND the thirst itself. Yes, that's it: He is the Living water and my very thirst. Simply BEING thirsty for Him is evidence that He fills me with such thirst. On my own, I only want my way, only (ultimately) want ME. The fact of His indwelling Spirit changes ME to His. Only me cannot thirst for Him enough. But I do. So there He is. It's that simple.
And these words of Julian's bring clarity to what I'm struggling to articulate. He is the substance, the ground, the teaching...the TAUGHT. God speaking to/with the Spirit within me. God to Holy God. Holy God to God within. THIS is where the power comes from, the power I keep veering toward. It's like this huge untapped reservoir, the Spirit, I mean, and the power His presence in us brings.. We live without it, but we don't have to. It's right there for us to drink from. For the Kingdom to be expanded, for us to see, hear, know God as He comes, He meant us to USE what He gave. It's our inheritance. We don't have to second-guess every decision, every path--He is right here. We are armed with everything we need, with the power to see, know, hear and follow, because we're armed with Him.
To put it in the negative, "There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed without the Lord."